Hello all.
I come baring somewhat bad news. Specimen Of Yan [Demo] has been privated and I no longer look forward to working on it further. Survive Min will still be up, because I do not want to take away something that many enjoy. Nevertheless, I don't believe I will be working on more games. Maybe I'll pick up the project again one day, but that is not a guarantee.
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I've been going through quite a few things recently and the scrutiny I've received from my games have not helped. I am a very active creator who engages alot with my community. I see the love, the praises, the support— but I also have to bare witness to the hate, the criticisms and the false accusations. I'm very active and engaging with the fandom. I've seen the shit people say about me online and in small circles. Allegations of me promoting harmful behaviour with the themes of my game, perpetuating misogynistic values, or glorifying horrific acts— when it is made clear that such actions should not be condoned whatsoever. People spreading rumours that my game is just AI slop, because my writing "sounds AI" or is "too descriptive", when I have been using certain descriptors, em dashes, Oxford commas, ellipses [okay, maybe I don't use this one that much], repetition of threes, ever since high school before Gen AI even existed. I should not have to change my style that I've stuck with for years, but comments like these do get to me, unfortunately. I do not feel comfortable sharing my work anymore if it's just going to be called souless slop. Especially because I put so much of my heart in it, it hurts.
Yes, I will admit. My game isn't a masterpiece. I made Survive Min out of the pure willpower I had newly found from my sudden fixation on coding. It was my first time touching Python, first time writing again in years, first time being truly excited to share a big project— and so I did. But now... I don't even know what to think of my work anymore. The art is nice I guess, but the story is rushed, the dialogue is inconsistent, everything just feels wrong to me. I came out of my shell to share something I thought was nice at the time, just to get slapped across the face with it.
I don't feel comfortable sharing my work to such a mass audience anymore.
I'm an artist— I will still draw and create art. But I don't think I'm going to be touching coding nor writing for a long while. And if I do, I will only share it with those I trust. Otherwise, I do not wish to be so open to the public.
I'm not doing mentally well. I just want to spend time with my loved ones and nurture my loving community. I will not satisfy everyone and that is okay; I'm going to stop trying, because it's quite frankly... exhausting.
To those who have been awaiting my breaking point— I hope you're happy knowing that you've caused an artist to lose passion for their art.
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Thank you for 100k Downloads. I appreciate the support I've been given. I'm so sorry I couldn't give back more.
Kind Regards,
Father.
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I'm really sorry people made you feel this way :( I will miss your content but I understand why you're leaving
I haven't played one of your games (yet) but I'm sorry you had to deal with that. Unfortunately purity culture is a bigger aspect of society rather than kink awareness. There genuinely isn't an issue with adult fantasy media as long as it doesn't cause real-world unconsensual harm or is marketed towards an inappropriate age demographic which was none of your content. I hope things will go better for you with whatever you do next in life.
Awww I loved your content :( Saddened to see you go. I wish you luck on whatever endeavors you decide to pursue in the future, Father.
Father noooo I'm so sorry T-T. People truly are so cruel and thoughtless. I really enjoyed your game and hope you know that your art truly means something to a lot of people. There are miserable hoes out there that will always want to pick something apart just because they themselves never feel whole. Their words don't mean that you've done anything wrong or that your game shouldn't exist. You shared a piece or yourself with us and I'm forever grateful for that. Also if you ever wanna make and share games exclusively on patreon... just know I'll be one of your first patrons. You could always create a community over there and make it so that only subscribers can access the games via itchio. arghhhhhhhh this is so sad. Please let me know if you have like a venmo or a paypal or something so i can at least send you off with a little something
This is truly sad, I absolutely loved your games they were my favourites. I find it terrible that some people like that criticize games, if you don't like the games, just leave. It always breaks my heart to see such people forcing talented developers to quit. I hope that one day you鈥檒l come back to make games.
Sorry my bad english. Very sad news. I love your games, story and art a lot. Seems this has been happening a lot lately with many creators. Some people are writing bad things about art or story, ai etc. And in the end devs stop doing games T.T That ppl always achieve their goal. I hope someday you will back in making games. And will enjoy doing it agn.
I'm not sure how much my words will help but Survive min was actually one of my favorite dark romance games that i'd played. I'm sorry that people have ruined your art for you, and I hope one day you can come to love your games and your art medium on your own terms again. I loved Min and I hope a hiatus will leave you feeling refreshed. Know that there are people who love you and care for you and regard your art with passion and not scrutiny. I hope that once the hype dies down that you'll find peace again. Please take care!!
I doubt you will read this but thank you for sharing even if it was cut short due to people who don't know how to move pass something that they know they hate and take it out to harass creators, me personally this game made me pick up my love for vn games which i haven't felt for in a long time and i only wish nothing but the best for you to find your passion and safe space again after this situation take care and i hope all goes well for you. I love the writing and love the art and Min will forever be my fav