lmfao incredible deployment of piss christ
this feels like a window into a slightly alien world. i'm piss-shy like you wouldn't believe and have peed in a publicly-accessible bathroom like three times in my entire life, so i've developed the bladder capacity of an elephant. even in my own home i will hit the point of needing to pee and then forget about it for several hours because it's just not that urgent.
so the politics around needing to ask permission to pee while you're in school would never cross my mind (even though you're obviously correct about all of it) because i didn't. i just didn't. as far as i can remember i never once used a school bathroom, all the way through the end of high school. i would simply enter a sort of bio-stasis for eight hours. same thing with crappy entry-level jobs. it just didn't come up.
so i guess thanks for writing this, because it's one of those things people don't really write about very much even though (or because?) it seems universal, but nothing ever truly is.
i appreciate the nod to that phenomenon of prepubescent fascinations becoming kinks later on, or whatever is actually happening there. that happened to me as well (albeit with different things) and i'm so curious what my brain was actually doing there, but of course it's hard to talk about.
the cam intermission was surprisingly vulnerable and then damn the last act really got me. it's funny how there's a sort of buildup from typo-laden chat logs, through what's mostly external narration, and then into internal narration that wrenches your guts completely independently of how much you're here for the omorashi, so it's almost a surprise when it happens. there's a depth and thoughtfulness that's hard to find and also hard to write.
so. well done. damn.