Beyond my Review
飧濃笣 You don't deserve what I'm about to do to you. 飧濃笣
So I thought It'd be most appropriate for me to divide actual thoughts and feelings mostly away from my review of this game. Sooo everyone will be able to see It here!
This Is all so fucked.
There are so many kinks and fetishes that are against the norm, so many things that make me question morals and ethics alongside the amount of toxicity and unhealthy relationships that are In this game. You are basically shown the lives of people just like you at their worst or in their way to the bottom, It was a bit hard to get through at times because of how real even if extreme it is. It's all so painfully relatable to a degree and It's like every character has a horrid shade of me.
And that's what makes It better.
But the thing Is... It also made me realize sooo much about myself, there are definitely things I already knew turned me on and desired but like, I can definitely go about this game from a reviewer stand-point and rate based off pure logic or technical matters however what'd be the point? This may not be my favorite piece of media of all time but god if It's special to me. I adore this game because of the plot, the themes, the ero scenes and the problematics of it.
There Is beauty In uglyness.
Why would I want to be normal? Some people already wouldn't consider me normal simply based off the fact I'm a trans girl that likes others of the same gender. Stupid but who cares. To show yourself covered in cuts and self inflicted wounds, In the most pathetic and disgusting physical state but still being loved and lusted over is more Intimate than anything else that could ever happen. I embrace the worst sides of myself and this game helped me realize that. I don't want to get better, I want to like the same frowned upon shit that everyone would cut someone off for, drink myself stupid while i bleed all over the place similar to a soon-to-be corpse attraction and get prettier in this nutcase of a mental state. It doesn't make my love "unpure", It's just different from something a regular person would want. I see myself in some of these characters, I see myself in some of these scenarios and maybe i do want to be like that. I'm still sane enough to be a (apparently) decent person while being a deranged freak of society that likes the worst of all and whatever else that can be thrown in this as long as i enjoy my life or whatever this garbage of an experience Is. As long as all Is managed, you can live with these thoughts and fantasies like any others, it doesn't boil down to just intercourse afterall, It's about accepting eachother even if it means enabling our worst traits. That doesn't mean not looking out for eachother, but loving others like us in the same way we would want to loved and Indulged in. Moderation Is key... And I look forward to more and more games in the same fashion as this setting and in this world.
The people I connected with thanks to this.
I made few of my existing friends play this and while some liked it and some didn't, I developed my view of the world through hardships and shared opinions. I built my perspective through seeing this visual novel from the lens of other people and I've discovered more of myself thanks to the newer ones I met even if still extremely few in terms of those who understand me. I met a girl the other day who I clicked with and bonded over this vn and god, seeing how someone could get so into me and understand me simply by showing the cut up bloodied up parts of me made me feel such an ethereal experience i can't even describe. No real flirting, just showing the most shameful consequences of actions i made and i was adored over it. That made me happy and once more showed me the kind of life and appreciation i want, the kind of connection i want to seek out & the kind of people i want to keep meeting.
For those who comprehend.
If you played this piece of media and understood all of it, liked it and accepted & related with everything alongside being a freakazoid. Embrace it, love yourself and find others like you! This community feels extremely small and it's prolly hard to find others like you (or more like it is for me since i'm a LOSER NEET) so take every opportunity that presents yourself as long as you accept the right people in your life, you can be immoral and indulge in others like you but be careful as not everyone will have that same kindness you may have even if you're rotten to the core. If anyone wants to get to know more people of their similar nature aka like me. I do have my X placed on my profile or otherwise you could drop your discord down here if you have read all of this and want to get to know me! I myself can count on my fingers the amount of people I know that are like that or that have played this game.